Still blue

In the last couple weeks I haven't been in a very happy place. I think it all started when Rusty passed away. He obviously got old right before my eyes, but since I saw him every day I didn't really notice it that much. And even though part of me knew the time was coming, I wasn't as prepared as I thought I would be. In losing the boy I lost the one who was always happy to see me, didn't have the need to agree or disagree with me on anything, didn't ask much from me, and always - no matter what - chose ME.